Well,it seems like we running out of time. We reach the end of the session. I want to thank specially Ms Barby for his hard work ,and her patience working to improve our skill in english. I think she did a wonderful job. After spending month with you guys, want it or not ,im definitely going to miss you. I hope all of us pass the text. I am going to pray for that hope my prayer goes higher than the roof.

Today i was working on my financial aid trying to get everything together. I didn't do too much today because i had so much thing going on. When i woke up today i was so excited. I knew today was going to be one of my gratest day ever . I can give detail. i dont know what to tell you im ready to go down with my people it's my time im going to have fun. i can not tell you the fun right here. i'll talk to you later

Well, i can't do the homework as Ms Barby suggested us because when i went on the site they just give a lil detail about The Golden Venture ,but not the whole story . I think we have to buy the cd from what i saw in the site. I can not timing myself because i don't have a fresh memory about the documentary. I am done with the assignment already ,but i did not do it as she suggested us. I do give detail in the essay that i got from the documentary. My problem now is i can not fill the paper out. i Hope im not the only one that was having this problem because if so i would get a mark for not doing my assignment. now im going to try on youtube to see what i'll have. i'll see everybody tomorrow then, good night!

Today is not a good day. I woke up in the rain and it seems like if I didn't have to go to the club tonight I'd never go out there because it's still raining. I already had so many phone call ,so I have to go. I was dying of boredom today because of the rain as people always said boredom it's a laziness problem , so I woke up and create something to do. When I think about the site that barby gave us to practice on verb-agreeent and so on. I went on,about three of the sites, and I see the time flying by like a plane that lost under the rada. Now I am writing on my blog and check on some classmate's blog. I guess im done so I'll be waiting for the time.

Why people are so unhappy about who they are, and some of them even take the risk to change their sexuallity by going through some lethal medical procedure . Well, i got a friend of mine that claims himself of being gay. Today he calls me to complain about someone that said " Being gay nowdays is an addiction like when You are addicted to drugs". I just add certain people are addicted to the feeling that they found when they had tried it the first time. I gave him my point of view in that situation. I said to him ,some people change they way they look because they like someone else better than themselves ,which i think it's a low self esteem problem. Some people change as a person because they want to be a macho , they want to show off and have attention of others without thinking about the ramification. I hate people that always follow others and never try to be their own leader. I told him you are not gay you are a gay want tobe. Whether he liked it or not i told him what he should have known. I got a friend back in Haiti he is a real gay. In my country they dont like gay. You can get hurt by being gay,and u can even get killed. This guy was the person we ,as friends, always try to hook him up with girls. He is handsome. He always has girl chasing him,but he has never interested in girl. One day we talked to him about that situation. he was scared to tell us the truth ,so he finally mentioned that "women dont get me excited. I tried to please people around me by getting together with a woman ,and i have never gotten sexually excited. I tried so hard, but i never succeed. I'am sorry i think im not belong to this world. Men have gotten me excited sexually ,but never a woman. I please myself by doing only God can see me." I said this guy is gay , but you never have problem to hook up with girls. Actually you have a girl friend, and i asked him do you want to call that gay? There's a difference between gay and bisexual. Any men that has no difficulty to get excited sexually with a woman ,and for some reason he wants to be with another man this person is not gay. He or she is addicted. there are few gay people in this world ,but there are millions of gay want to be. I said ,"you are one of him". If you think Back you will see why you want to be gay,and if the reason is not what i just said you are not gay you are an addict.

Things are getting better now because i just got my pc fixed. I am happy that I finally see what was the problem, specially at this time because a few hours later I will not be able to write two blogs. I spent must of my time in this pc trying to get it work . Today I woke up desperately trying to do some text to see what was the problem, and I succeed. Now I'll be able to check on the site that Barby suggested us and get some work done. im happy!

I have never been out since this morning. When i woke up today i kept myself busy on doing my assignments. i checked the site that Barby suggested us ,so now i am doing the last one: blogging. That's all i have been doing today. Im seating here waiting for the time to come and go to work.

Today I almost made the biggest mistake in my life, forgotten my mother's birthday. When i came back from work i saw the house decorated ,and i quickly realize someting is going on. As my little sister and I have a bond i took her aside to ask her secretely what's going on,and she surprisingly answered " are you serious? it's mom's birthday. I told her to keep it secret, and i went out to get her a small gift. Now we are having a little get together. I hope i enjoy it because it's all about christianity.

Yesterday was really fun, but today news just turned it upside down. I went to my friend birthday in wyandanch, as i can't miss nakisaki i left the party early to go there. When i came in i saw an old friend of mine there. We were chatting and dancing trying to catch up. It was fun. Early this morning i recieved a call that my friend is hospitolized. A good samaritan found him in the street unconscious and the person called 911. I still dont know what was the problem ,but they didnt find any bruises in his boddy. I am just hopping for everything to be okay.

I always want to share my wisdom ,which are my experiences, with everybody. I strongly believe that they can learn from them. Everyday in life is a study, if we try to use every second of it as words from books . New things will be suprising or unexpecting, but we should always learn from them . They might sound as a defeat or victory ,but remember there will be ramification of both sides. It could be a better perspective on life, a way to deal with future issues and know how to carry the weight of them. folks should always humble theirselves for good result in the journey of life. Don't we ever think that people are too low to advise us. Even when they are moralize us and they are sound crazy to us be willing to listen to them. Remember everything is not crazy about a crazy person. Don't we miss that part because we'll never know that there's a lot in life we can not do.
Talking about limitation in life when i refer to relationship there is a lot we can say. Today i was drinking some bear with a friend who had girlfriend problem. As i have been notice certain things ,and i believe he also knew them. I let him understand that she's not that person he is dreaming of. I talked to him ,i moralize him and critisize him to get him focus. Some people think they can change others, which is a big mistake. They risk their future by trying to make someone understand that they love them. As i have been to situation similar like his ,and i was always willing to learn from the craziest person on earth. I was the right person that could help him. All of my friend showed their concern and tell me to help him. I made him understand certain things that's not new, but it could have been new for him. We people can not change others if they are not ready for the change, or see the necessity of that change period, that's what i believe. I told him that she doesnt like him they way he does,so stop being a stalker let her go. Some people come to our lives they are like leaves of trees. When the wind blow north they will be and the north side. It will be like that for the cardinal points. some are like branches from trees,so if we lean on them they will fall with us. Some are like roots they will stand by us in good weather or bad wheather. I tell him "know what ur priorities are." he said," i love her to death it is not that easy". Well, nothing is easy but if we love ourselves so much we will never let someone distroy it. I tell him "next time before you fall in love make sure that the person it's the root of the tree because leaves are there for seasons."
Some people say loving eyes can not see. t's not true. It is just only hard to see . If we try our best and we are willing to learn from a wise person we will make the difference. A person that doesnt like us will never compromise with us. we need to know how to let folks go because they can destroy our lives. there is only one place we can find a total peace: deep down a grave yard, and one place we can find love, affection and happiness: Home sweet home. If we bring someone in our home because we think we can change that person , we just make a thousand step toward hell. Please learn how to let folks go.

Today was not a long day. I woke up and feeling amazing so strong. Now im ready to manage this week ahead. Today after i finished my homework i went to see my friend baby. He was so cute so innocent. He leave in deer park ave now, so it was fun to drive up there. myself and a couple of friend went there. we talked to him about the change that is in his life now,and he told us about what happened in the delivey room. he said that he cried. We were cracking up laughing. After he finished explaining the reason i felt bad for the boy. I said, it was good making it, so keep it strong to face the ramification.

Today is coming out to be one of buziest day ever. Early this morning around 3am my frriend call me ,and told that his girl friend was in labor. He has freaked out . I did not want him to drive, so i drove them to the hospital. I stayed at the waiting room for about 5 hours. As i got an appointement at the writing center,i could not wait ,and i could not postpone it because i postponed it last saturday. I got a weekly appointment there, and my tutor's name is Ms powell, i like her. So i left the hospital around 10 am i just called she is still not delivered the baby yet. i hope she have two babies. now im trying to do my homework before the time...Nakisaki!

Today when I woke up, i was not feeling so well. In spite of that i was trying to be ready to go to the writing center. unfortunately, i could not go. D had to call the center to postpone my appointment to next saturday. I used some herbal medicine. I stayed in bed all day . Now im awake trying to get ready to go to my friend baby shower. It is raining out there i dont know if im gonna make it. may be i have to because he needs our supports.

Everything that begins has an end. We really hate to see you go Christina ,but this is the business. We understand. I do not know how to thank you. I just want to sound special. I want to describe you with special words that can define how special you really are. When I seat back thinking about teachers that I know ,and I had experience with. When i try to compare your potentiality with them, it just sounds like a mistake. Your ability is way too much above them, so there is no way possible to compare you with them. I am not saying that to flatter you. You have a high undertanding that's not usual, a earing functional that's not average. You try to understand even succeed to know everyone of us. Even when I am mad at you sometimes. when i think about it, i said to mysself " she just trying to help me." To focus on everyone with two eyes is not something for all. You are an heaven sent Christina. You were born to be a teacher. I can tell u are happy to be a teacher. Keep up with the good job!

Today i was watching a movie about hardship in life. It really inspires me about a lot of things. It was about how our conscience could be the biggest odstacle in our life ,especially ,when we give up on our duties because of something has happened. It happens most of the time when people have had a bad experience. they take it as a defeat ,but not as a lesson. It also helps me realize when we forgive we dont forgive the person that has done harm to us. We just breake the chain that tie up our conscience to the past, so we can be able to move on. I learn this lesson im going to apply it. I did not want to for give because i was applying a phylosophy that i thought was the best. like, we all have a sense on us that tell us when we are wrong when we are right. So when people say sorry i always say, it's a word that means nothing to me. I always say you should have thought about it before you did it. Now i know when i forgive i don't do it for the person. I do it for myself, so i can be able to move on.

today is the day that i make up my mind or concentrate to start the hard week ahead. When i wake up today i did my homework,and hours after i went to my friend concert in brooklyn. That was fun. I never wanted to go to her concert . Today she called me like my number was 911 because she wanted me to be there. I went there and i enjoyed it. it was really fun. They sing well, i mean really good . I enjoyed it to the fullest. When i got back home i went straight to bed trying to be ready for the long nigt. That is the life of a hard worker.Believe that, i am enjoying the challenge.

I did my repetitive daily activities: Going to work and the writing center. now im waiting for the good part of the day the fun part.
Saturday comes out to be my pleasurable day. I always take five hours out of the twenty-four to enjoy myself ,to take a load off. I love to be in the club. seeing the other side of people under the enfluence of alcohol make me happy. i love raggae and socca not to mention the crazy dance. That is why i always go to Jamaican club. I love the five Hours of that day the most because i know it will be fun.

Throughout life people have been suffering from those two things: the lie and the truth. Some people say both are painful why not lying when the truth going to be painful. To lie is also sometime painful and if it does not know it's not a lie. I think lying is ever ok because it is interesting to not mention or let out the whole truth than lying if u know a person is going to hurt. Like Richard says "it's interesting to live not knowing than to have answers which might be wrong."
As we are not perfect we can not stay out of trouble. Sometime the lie come easier out of our mouths when we are wrong. But the consequence of lying is more intractable than the truth. It's not ok to build a relationship up on lies. We can not hide the truth,so it's better to say it early because it will be discover later. And when it comes out it will be more painful than ever. we will lost our friends confidence and they will never trust us again.It is not okay to lie.
in addition, lying to someone wil not only hurt the person that we are lying to. Emotionally when we know that we lie to someone we love we also hurt ourselves. Deep inside we know that we are wide of the mark. The way we were man enough to messed up we should man up to say the truth Because it will set us free. It will give us back the persone confidence, but lying will destroy the relationship for ever.It is not wise to lie.
Under any circumstances lie is not okay. i admit, i lie , do lie ,have lied. I do not think there is anyone who has not. Even there might be conflic by telling the truth. It is more acceptable to not mention anything than lying. we can skip the truth or not telling the whole story than lying because lying is something that people should avoid to do.

I dont have much to write about lately. I tried, but it happens that im repeating myself because our daily activities are too repetitive. I talked about this topic before, so i think it will be important to repeat myself which i dont like to do.
I make a weekly appointement at the Y building which is the writing center. I would rather call it: "Y" building than writting center because it makes me answer this question "why does everyone need to go to the writing center?". If someone needs to pass this class this person needs to go to the writing center. I thought that i was better in writing. Since i have been to the writing center my thoughts change. I thought my problem was only gramatical, but it was not true. By going there i realize that i have a lot of little problems to work on. They are not really little. i said little because I am determined to work on them. If anybody in the class knows that he/she has some writting problems, so the person needs to call the center a make and appoitment. the sacrifice that we make to come everyday during the weekin school , so i believe each on everyone of us can do th same sacrifice for only 45 minutes to attend the writing center which can garantee our achievements. I dont want to scare anyone ,but i should tell everybody this " if someone has never been to the writting center this person will not be able to pass the text." I notice that a teacher has to teach on our common problems,but that never means it is the only problem we have. go to the writting center we will see what im talking about.

A person sometimes can not talk about a subject because the person my have a bad memory about it. I was dealing with the same issue i never talk about my dog and the cat that i used to have, Ben and minou.
In my early age i had Ben, who was a dog, from my family. I was more attaching to Ben than my family was ,also ben does. Years later they would have had to take it away from me because of delequency. I used to have him with me everywere i go. I used to scare people with him because it was a big Dog. The worst of all is, i used to fight people for any reason as long as knew Ben got my back. No matter how big or older then me you might be, i will try to fight you if you had been disrespectful. When i got an altercation with some young men and ben is not there i would not act. If they do something wrong to me i would go home to get Ben and the fight will be on. I knew that Ben would bite them. after so many people have been reported the news to my family so they decided to take him away to my grand parent that were far away from me. Years later he died. It was old because it was my father dog. It was older than me.
Minou was my lovely cat she was so smart. Actually,she was not my cat my older brother brought it, but he is not affectionate. Month after Minou has me as favorite, so my brother said "u can have her." i used to wake up early in the morning to go to training . It happened that every 5 am Minou will come to my room in bite my finger just to wake me up. i think that was smart. We had so much fun. One day i was looking for her i could not see her. somebody killed her. Some people in my country eat cats, those are dugs and alcohol addicted ,and some does not. When i knew what happened to the cat i wanted to kill that man. I was hurt and angry. Thank God! I got over it months later.
I think some animals are affectionate and intelligent. No one should allow to kill or eat any of these animals. the law should punish u as a killer ,first degree murder. my favorite are dogs and cats, respect them no matter you like them are not.

Beeing around people bring a lot of fun. that doesnt happen all the time, but when we gather around for the same purpose it is really amazing. when people from different places come together to help others make me realize.. yes, we can make it better.
The heart walk today was amazing. It was not easy for me to come because i work over night and the heart walk was in the morning,but i just wanted to be a part of it and i did. it was really fun. They had free food in the morning ,free luch after the walk. it was only three miles i wish it was more because i was having fun. Meeting new people have always been exciting. There were cheer leader dancing, student from other college and university ,from hospital and so on. I did not stay much because i had to get some sleep. I left around twelve i dont know how it ended. For the little time i spent there it was fun.
I hope everybody make it the next time.

There is so many things to know when we are learning a foreign language. context of languages are really different. Latin include in every language , but countries are interpreted it in different ways. this is something we have to pay attention to. Also there is someone in the Y building to help us.
Today i went to the writting center ,Mrs Powell was my tutor. I went there trying to improve my language skills. while she was helping me with an essay that i wrote. She made me realized so many thing, and taught me so many things i never paid attention to and i did not know about. A lot of basic rule that i did not know. i was really happy. The tutor know how to help us, what our problems are ,and where to start with us. they are not going to let us confuse. for only one day i learnt so many thing , so i ask myself "why not trying every saturday?
If someone in the class room never been to the writting center. i highly recomend everybody to go. They are open on weekend. I know a lot of us guys are having the same issue as me. We don't have time , we are always tired, but at least we are trying. So try harder guys to make it there because we are going to love it. Before i left the building Y i make another appointement with the same tutor. I know the situation because im living it ,so that means i can advise all of you. take the phone make the call.

I know first time on everything will be challenged. I do not hate challenge Because life in general it is challenging. I always made the best out of my ability to put up with difficult task.
For the past few days i was moving to another place. I did not know it would be that hard because i have never moved before. Usually i took time to write in my blog ,thinking about a nice topic to talk about. It has been a week since i have not done that. The series of moving action were intractable because we were close to the house we decided not to call a company for that . As we were doing it ourselves it was challenging. carry all those stuff was not easy for me . Especially after my deadly job at night. i could not sleep because after job it's moving after moving it would be school there was no sleepy time. thank God im through.
Now i'll have time to write my thought and my daily activities.

Full time work and full time school are really hard to put up with ,but with determination and hunger for knowlege it would be fun to go along the process. A day off on a path rocky like mine is really worthy. I tried to make more worthy by dedicate it to my outside activities: My business activities.
Inconvenient sometime shot off activities. I was supposed to go to a training support at Ramada Hotel today. what happened was i needed to bring some people there with me so they see what this opportunity can do to her life positively. there was a freind of mine who always go there with me. i lent him my car so he could go outside to do something for me. thirty minutes gone by and he was not there. So i decided to give hum a call. He told me that the car broke down. i had to go there to see if i can fix it becaue i have to make it to the training and support. i could not do nothing about it . i pushed it home because it was not to far from my house. i did not have any ride ,so i could not make it to there. I wish i had two cars.
sometime things happened for a reason. That is why i did not borrow any of my family's car. This happen to me one time when i was going to one of my freind birthday party. I lent my father's car, and the engine went on fire on the express way. That is why i dont lent people's car in inconvenient like this.

I realize that not every topic could have an introduction. it is not easy to introduce a situation you were not happy about. I was trying to do the right thing by trying to have access to go to the writting center. I am still upset about it. Why do they have to give me a ticket when i have a permit that allow me to have access to the parking lot? Is it a trap the set for us?
I was very unhappy about the situation. I wanted to have my idea card done ,so i went to tower buildng right after class to have it done . i parked to a parking spot that was close to the building. I did not inter by the main entrance. I parked my car and went to the building. When i came out i saw the security guard next to my vehicle, so i ran to the parking lot to see what he was doing He was actually giving me a ticket. how in the world with my ncc parking permit should they be allowed to give me a ticket? For people who does not know about that, even with the ncc parking permit you are not allowed to park in any parking lot in the campus. It is a trap they just need the money,as far as i know it happens every year. They not going to tell us where we are permited to parking or not. They are just waiting on us to give us the ticket. It is money ,money talk. When we were getting the permit why do you think they did not let us know about this matter? The money have to be collected that's all. i warn you dont park every where. there are parking spot if u did not get in at the main entrance you want be able to see the sign posted which said parking staff, something like that . Make sure you look around to see if you went in by the main entrance.
We are a part of their plans it's not easy to get out of it but we can always try.

Learning about climbing mouting, and the danger we have to face had me disengage from the idea. I have never had in thought to climb one. Sometime i ask myself why they are doing this? Is there any treasure in the summit. As far as i know it is ony to set record, to be in newspapers ,magazines etc.
hazardly yesterday i climb a mountain. it was only in a dream. I dont know how this happened because i have not had in mind something like that.I did not know which mountain i was on: killimanjaro or Everest. The funniest thing was i overcame my obstacle easily. i was climbing with determination i slid down, and i saw a gap i was going in. so i woke up everything was over. that is only the way i wanted to climb a mountain.
It was fun to climb a mountain in a dream. Specially when it makes obstacles more easy to overcome. i wish to climb killimanjaro and everest in another dream.

Complaining dont really solves problem. I know my repetitive life is about to get started for another long week. Sometime I hope the weekend was more than two days. I wish I could make it better just over one night. Is it goint to be worthy? How could I make it better?
Knowing that the time has come for me to start doing the work makes me feel exhausted. working at night and go to school in the morning is really challenging, But is better because i know this will stop one day. This is the only way that i can make things better. By thinking about myself doing this job for another few years is a disaster.
Dont give up on what you have started because Life was meant to be a certain way. The road ahead might be rocky ,so there will be obstacles .

A comunity that can not offer anything could be hard for us ,specially if we plan on moving to the next level. But could we over come our obstacles? they said," when one's feel bad about his situation he/she should not look into any rich people line. instead, he/she should go down to the poor line and realize how fortunate they are." I did this before and it works. It is hard to see how fortunate we are if we are only looking on the bright side. How could we work on our situation ?
Saturday is one of my favorite day. Today i went out to ramada hotel on a Presentation and Training Support trying to work with some of my freinds. Also, try to get them in the same page with me in the life book. as a business-minded person i wanted to help them but so many of them are fallowing the destruction line that this community set them up to. "Drug." I beleive if people that was living there who become successful did take time to come back ,and share the wisdom with them it would have been better. I saw a lot of them with potential because i do not look at people with my eyes. I just put my eyes on them trying to see their minds, their potential, their abilities. I saw that opportunity as a way out for anybody that is living a hardship life, anybody who needs better in their lives. It does not require any specialty, any bachelor any diploma. It just ask a simple common sense. Work on our situation in a community that does not have any mental, anybody to fallow their steps or what they did to become successful, anyone that can inspire us. All we have is the destruction line to follow. This ask a lot of work. The archilles truck club as disable people climb the killimanjaro mountain. So we can overcome our obstacles. Work on our situation in a community that would not support is not an easy steps. we will encounter people that would tell us that it would not work, this is what it meant to be. They would acting like expert even tell you that college is this college is that all kind of thing, but as far as i know knowledge is the only thing that we people ever own because it will die with us. Having money they will try, and even rob you, having a wife divorce court will put a restraining oder against you, having a house a lack of making payment on time could be a lost. All i am saying is, dont let nobody tells you that you can not do this you can not do that just know what your goal is in life, go for it and achieved it.
We can work on our situation if we do not settle for less. If we live our life by thinking that we deserve better, and if we know what we want what our goals are. We can overcome any community big impact and influence that's been affected our life. yes! we can make a better tomorrow.

Life is like climbing a mountain ,with main goal to reach the summit. There would be obstacle, tough time. Some of us will back down ,some of us will say, "that's what it was meant to be", some of us would say that is our limit,but a few of us will push the limit to make it to the top. Everyday in my life is like a learning center. I hate to see between the sunrise and the sunset not to do something new or learn something new. I alway try to learn something different to learn something from the world movement .
some people think im from the mood because im always in go0d moon. But today I wasnt in good mood ,and I dont know what was the problem; but I was not happy about myself. I went to school but felt upset throughout the class . I tried to not show it. When i got home it was time . I got my freinds they carry so much problem with them they alway need help . one of them called me to help him whit a mechanic problem on hi car. As i know something about mechanic he called me just to check on his card to see what is the problem. I checked the car, and there was a little problem on the distributer i fixed it . he was happy because someone asked him 200 hundred dollars for the matter, so he gave me 50 bucks. i learn those things in mechanic by myself. my car gives me so much problem i always try to check it myself that 's how i acquire those knowledge. i wake up every day trying to learn something. i learn from my car, my freind car today ,and we went to a place together . By trying to find something new on my way. I found a necklace. I am just trying to pushthe limit to see if i can get something for my life. life is not promessing i just do not want t it like it appears i beleive that i deserve more and should live the life that i deserve.

Daily activities are so repetitive sometime, but it happens that during the day something unexpected came up. That might be enjoyable or unpleasant. my daily activities it is really repetitive i barely talk about it. it is all about work in school.
Today when i was at my over night job doing my repetitive and uninteresting work . Around 5 am a friend called me that was having a problem with his car so i asked him, "what's going on?" He told me that his pregnant girl friend just called, and the car did not start I had to help him it has to rush to the hospital. I was at work at that time. i sneaked out the door and went to my car. When i got to his house, i picked him up and drove to the hospital. i was teasing him. "Boy u going to have three babies", jocking at the waiting room waiting for the doctor to call him in. Instead , i saw his girlfreind came out and her belly was the same size. i was like ,"girl how many did you make already?" she was laughing . So his Boyfriend asked, " what was the problem?" She said, " i dont know. " I was like , "Oh Boy!" . His boyfriend was in anxiety ,so he went to the doctor to ask . I accompany him to the doctor office. the doctor mention that it was just some movement that the baby was making and kicking there was no water broke just anxiety. i was speeding to get there and there was no delevery it was just anxiety. now im by myself who knows what going to happen at my job tonight.
I have no regret dough,i would have had more regret if i did not make it to help him out. It was not a big disappoinment. i understand that they are really young there is lot that they dont know about pregnancy. besides all of that, i did not know about those kicking and movement that babies are capable of. So that was a learning experience for me. "I am ready to go right now."

Friendship is someting that really can complete anybody's life. Friends are not going to be friendly sometime . They will do things to piss u off to make you mad. But with for giveness things could work out. Some say freinds are jealous when you are making progress, freinds are destructive etc. But should we stop being friendly? can we afford an entourage without friends? So my perception is that:
Friends are really good to us, and we can not afford an entourage without friends when they are friendly. If they are not, they could be destructive. Yesterday when i was in class my phone was in silence i could not notice any phone call, but in the break time i went out when i check my phone i had around nineteen missed call. It was my friend that was trying to reach me. I didnt call him back because he did that sometime to just tell me a story. When i went back to class , i realize by cheking the time that he was'nt stopped calling. So when school where done i called him to ask him what was the matter . It told me that he has an emergency,and he neeeded me to do him a favor. So i said im coming. When i got to his place it was ready to go somewhere. So it told me to drive him to this place that was in Springfield boulvard Quenns . I went there with him thinking that it knew the place when i asked him direction it didnt even know where he was going , so i tried to figure it out myself, as i know queen a little bit, i finally got to springfield. I asked him for the house number it told me 150 - something. So i tried t0 figure it out again .What i did was is trying to find 150 and see what would have happened. When i got to the end of Springfield it was 147-28. So i said "there's no 150". He answered "woaw". I said "where would u exactly want to go". He said "150". I said "there's no 150 okay". I was pissed off. And he said " let's try to see". I said " that's ridiculous! cant u see it's a dead end?" He answered "well, somebody told me that Joannah live in this address, so i was trying to contact her. I said "Joannah! Man u are crazy." He's a stucker this girl have broken up with him like months and he still want to be with her by following her footsteps. How could you be in love by youself? It just sounds crazy. I got so angry. So i drove back to Westbury to drop him off and go home. When i got home he called me and apologize ,so i accepted his apology and move on because he's been more friendly to me than unfriendly.
Insight the reality made it clear that a freind that is a consistent unfriendly person is not a friend a freind that being unfriend rarely is a good friend because at the end of it we are human and human makes mistake.

As a business lover, i have never seen myself working pay check to pay check. i always visualize myself owning a business hire people and treat them like partner . when i think about it . Vsualizing myself working for twenty years doesnt sound right. I dont know if im going to make it for another twenty years. Life is not promessing. I am not going to settle for less neither for a long term achievement. i know the road ahead would be tough. they say in life there is some who lets opportunity pass them by, and there is some who takes action. i asked "which one am i"?
I am definitely the one who takes action Because im looking for a better opportunity. Today i went to a presentation about a life changing concept developed by Donald J Trump, so i went there to see myself what the concept was about. It was about how to make money or save on what matter's most; Our own bill payment. We will get pay in a monthly basis. It makes so much sense to me when they explain it. The most important thing was getting pay residually and overiding residual. Getting pay like actor ,things that i didnt know about, got me excited. I understand how it works, so i think i have found the opportunity that i have been looking for . I am ready to do the work.
Working for another twenty years and having a retirement plan doesnt make too much sense to me. When i think about it, i never know one day that price of living where decrease always increase how could i have a retirement i am wondering how it would be in another twenty years. I beleive thing are not gettin any better. i saw so many senior citizen sweeping floors. that doesnt give hope.

In a progressive world in which free time is hard to find . We can play down not to having a schedule ,our own schedule. A budget is require for any concerned people. Is it hard to keep up with? so many people got distracted along the way, and do what was'nt on schedule. Is it a lack of concentration? How we can solve it? That's my opinion on it ,and experience.
Today i woke up having on plan to do my little business work that i always schedule on weekend. I was doing it like i always do. I got distracted along the way by something that we could not neglect because our body need it, " A good time". It happens to so many people. we can only get distracted by fun things, or exciting things could be something annoying etc . I was having a little break trying to get a load off my mind, and someone called me. It was a good freind of mind we always do business together. he told me that he is close to my house at the park ,so i went to the park talking about what we going to do to make the business work and so on . I saw a good freind of mind in the basketball court we used to play together back in the day. so, he asked me to play and my freind asked, " do you play basketball" ,i said "yes I used to be a good player", and he said " me too" so we forgot about business and went to the court play basketball for hours. When we realize that it's not what we supposed to do it was too late. we talked about it we realized that it was'nt because we were negleting it was also a lack of not having fun for so long. knowing the consequiences after getting distracted , Specially when you are at work or doing something important you can not get distracted. But working on your own project you actually think that you can always come back and start over but at the end it's still not a good thing Because we can not make up for the lost time. it's a lack of concentration. But we actually know what we should do to help ourselves it's to take a day off to have fun.
Distraction is a need that come to your way, and needed to be fulfilled ,also a lact of concentration, could be negligence or something annoying and so on. You are the only person that really know the matter. that's why we have a lot to work on in life. if we are paying attention to our problem.

Disengage from the reality of the world has never been an easy step for me. Before i even learnt the speculation of the mass media throughout the world i could already have figured it out that anything that related to politic is critical.That's why i named it " The evil science". some have been asking, "is the media really have the freedom of speech? Do we? Those are remain question that we can only have our different vantage point on . So i express mine.
The process of establishing diffrent classes in this world had occured so many problem. The mass media have stood up on our favor ,and the legislator is in favor of politician ,yet tell the media how to difuse the information. Especially when they had something to hide. Where i grew up because of politic matter we saw so many things happened, and i have different opinion on certain matter. During a period of tribulation. Politic issues had made it matter's most ,because of what they were doing. One day the media was'nt agree on hidding the truth, because it was'nt only the mass population that were affected by their wrond doing. They were ready to let it out. They had stood up against the government. so many of them died, and they distract the population from seing the truth, but there was one man that was'nt scared. He stood up in behalf of those that had died to explain in prove the fact. Why the were with the government? Why they are against them now? How so many of them died ,and why? I said to myself ,they finally have the freedom of speech which had never happened. Because when the war had started in iraq, and when the take over happened in venezuela. What was diffuse in so many other countries wasnt diffuse in here, and the opposite way. i said to myself, the freedom of speech have been told, not that! i mean the mass media is controled by governments.
By Scrutinizing in depth the fact. i realize that there is a lot about politic we coudnt know ,and also this world. lively up yourself and dont be no fallower,and dont intake to much information because you might get confused.

The process of living Life is to imitate other living creature or what someone has create and so on. but the question is, should we let others guide us? do we need other people around us to be complete? Sometime we just need to stand on our own to realize things, to see things and make our own judgment. So do we have to live on what others told us? should we live our life with certain limit.
Today i went out to fight what i thought that was a phobia. As i love comedy, 'I Can Do Bad All By Myself ' was in theather today i decided to know what was the fear that everybody else is enjoying, and im not ? is it all thoughts ? yes! it was only thought. may be because of what my parents told me. i used to scared of being in there etc . Made me beleive that i was not belong there,and limited myself. So, today i went to a movie theather to find out ,and i finally realize that it was one of my favorite place that i always want to be at . I was surrounded by people they were laughing ,enjoying the same thing. I really felt complete. It was really exciting. I enjoy it like i've ever disliked being there. I love it and i plan to go there next weekend.
We people need to get out in fight what we always thought was a phobia mine was'nt really a strong fear. It was just only an imagination of being scared. There was no goose bumps nothing ,it was all thought. Your fear might be also only thoughts ,so get out in your own to discover it urself.

The bigest study in life is learning from our daily activities . It could be confusing and misunderstanding, but with common sense mingle with good judgement it's clear and abvious to realize that some question answers is correct depend only on the honesty of who answers it. It could be responded with experience.
Yesterday i was excited about the joy that i know im going to have in brooklyn. I went there with one of my freind . He has family that lives in the area, and he used to live there too .He promised that it would help me find a parking spot. When we finally found a parking spot I was'nt paying any attention to where i parked ,what was the name of the street? nothing. We headed toward easthern parkway where the ceremony held at. yes! I thought i was having fun, so much fun. My freinds were drinking but i could'nt because i had to drive. When it was time to leave i could'nt find them. I tried to call, no answer. I knew suddenly that im in big trouble becaause i didn't know the street where i parked the car. Hours passed by, so i decided to see if i could find it myself . i went to the street that i came to easthern parkway to figure it out . I spent hours by trying to discover it . My phone ring, It was him so junk i couldnt hear clearly his word , so i asked him "where are you ?" and he answered "im still at the parkway come pick me up i can't walk " so i asked him "what was the name of the street that we parked?" and his desperate answer was " i dont know" . so i called a friend to tell him about the situation to see if he could get him off the street because he was junk and i could not hear his drunk voice. it waas like ,bla ,bla ,bla. Fortunately the Guy found him and he also came to rescue me. He helped me to find the car. unfortunately ,he had to go to work he couldnt stay longer. I told him to go with my freind as i know the block that we parked because he gave me some drunk information that was'nt clear. Now i have to enlighten his information to find the car. I spent other hours to make sense to what he told me .When i finally got the car it was time . I've been walking back in fourth since six o'clock and it was midnight when i found the car. It was hard to mention fun when i spend more time searching in anxiety for a car. I could not leave because by the time i came tomorrow it would have towed or i might have had some tikets.
Is it really going to be fun when we are out for fun? there's a quantity of question that can not be answered by "yes " or "no". the answer will answer at the moment.

Journal

Waking up everyday to repeat the same basic activities and the diversities of evolution could be challenging, By repeating what the corporate world set us for on a daily basis with multiplicity i hard. however, could it rest our tediousness? Is dullnes something we can not work on? a quantity of people answer " yes" and i commend it.
Today i woke up from last night weariness i thought sleeping would have helped me to do away with it but it does not. What was brought was a Drearing day . I know dreary is a process that i can work on by kicking up a fuss, that's what i did! I get my dictionaries , synonym, antonym etc; trying to learn new vocabulary , as you can see, and doing my asignment and so on. Today was started not to be a great day an ecstatic one so i made it happen by simply genarate something and enjoy it.
Perceptiveness made me become concious that being bored ,that i prefer saying "mind-numbing" because he makes more sense, is a state of mind and idleness. Always think to do something when you feel Bored it's not a ilness , if you think it is, heal it with some creativity of motion.

Between dawn to dust activities among people have brought oppositeness of this world : positive and negative. We always make plan for the next day ,what progressive people do. We always expect to have a wonderful day, but the unexpected sometimes takes our excitment away. how could we forget the existence of it?
Last night i went to bed expecting a better tomorrow but the unexpected had caught me by surprise. I woke up to day but i wasn't feeling well. I felt really weak and dizzy , I was sneezing throughout the day ,so I got up and make myself some tea and i went back to bed. When i woke up around 7pm i felt fine and went out to watch a soccer game with some of my freind, the game was excited because my team won. It was the only joy that i had during the day. Thank God it wasn't that bad.
We can always dream and wish for the best, but always remember the unexpected could be harmfull and it could be joyfull.

being heard about United states was always exciting. Seing it in movies, pictures gave me the hope, but i didn't know too much about tourist attraction. The land of opportunity, when i was growing up i believe it was like a place were life is like living in paradise .By thinking that getting money was easy for my parents i do harm to them. I remember myself calling them lying about stuff to them just to have money sometime , they said " we dont have money Rony " deep inside me i was like, please! no excuses. Well, the time has come for me to come to the land of opportunity i was so excited ,i gave my clothes to my freinds and some utilities ,thinking that i was going to have new stuff ,things were going to be better . Sometime the silver lining is really supprising . On november 12th was the day of deliverance. 12:00PM we landed at JFK airport i got out of the plane it was beautiful ,intriguing. My father came to pick us up ,driving to the express way but i could'nt say nothing, excitement was tearing me apart i was speechless. They were going to brooklyn by jackie Robinson the cemetery was like woaw! still can say nothing. When we got to grandville pennsilvania ave i finally say something ," where we are going?" i said to myself "they might have made a wrong turn." They arrived to new lots and stop "we home" i still couldnt beleive it. A Three bedrooms apartment for six people. I was speechless for the real reason now. Thinking about those lie that i created to get money out of those poor people by thinking thatthey were rich was the real deal though.
Insight into reality of life have thought me the lesson that there's mesery everywhere in this world but some are progressive ,some are hopeless. reality has knocked on my ignoring door so hard and dropped me the mail of despair from Haiti again. i woke up and said to myself " yes it is the land of opportunity , with hard work everything is possible because there's nothing free an America"