Why people are so unhappy about who they are, and some of them even take the risk to change their sexuallity by going through some lethal medical procedure . Well, i got a friend of mine that claims himself of being gay. Today he calls me to complain about someone that said " Being gay nowdays is an addiction like when You are addicted to drugs". I just add certain people are addicted to the feeling that they found when they had tried it the first time. I gave him my point of view in that situation. I said to him ,some people change they way they look because they like someone else better than themselves ,which i think it's a low self esteem problem. Some people change as a person because they want to be a macho , they want to show off and have attention of others without thinking about the ramification. I hate people that always follow others and never try to be their own leader. I told him you are not gay you are a gay want tobe. Whether he liked it or not i told him what he should have known. I got a friend back in Haiti he is a real gay. In my country they dont like gay. You can get hurt by being gay,and u can even get killed. This guy was the person we ,as friends, always try to hook him up with girls. He is handsome. He always has girl chasing him,but he has never interested in girl. One day we talked to him about that situation. he was scared to tell us the truth ,so he finally mentioned that "women dont get me excited. I tried to please people around me by getting together with a woman ,and i have never gotten sexually excited. I tried so hard, but i never succeed. I'am sorry i think im not belong to this world. Men have gotten me excited sexually ,but never a woman. I please myself by doing only God can see me." I said this guy is gay , but you never have problem to hook up with girls. Actually you have a girl friend, and i asked him do you want to call that gay? There's a difference between gay and bisexual. Any men that has no difficulty to get excited sexually with a woman ,and for some reason he wants to be with another man this person is not gay. He or she is addicted. there are few gay people in this world ,but there are millions of gay want to be. I said ,"you are one of him". If you think Back you will see why you want to be gay,and if the reason is not what i just said you are not gay you are an addict.

Things are getting better now because i just got my pc fixed. I am happy that I finally see what was the problem, specially at this time because a few hours later I will not be able to write two blogs. I spent must of my time in this pc trying to get it work . Today I woke up desperately trying to do some text to see what was the problem, and I succeed. Now I'll be able to check on the site that Barby suggested us and get some work done. im happy!

I have never been out since this morning. When i woke up today i kept myself busy on doing my assignments. i checked the site that Barby suggested us ,so now i am doing the last one: blogging. That's all i have been doing today. Im seating here waiting for the time to come and go to work.

Today I almost made the biggest mistake in my life, forgotten my mother's birthday. When i came back from work i saw the house decorated ,and i quickly realize someting is going on. As my little sister and I have a bond i took her aside to ask her secretely what's going on,and she surprisingly answered " are you serious? it's mom's birthday. I told her to keep it secret, and i went out to get her a small gift. Now we are having a little get together. I hope i enjoy it because it's all about christianity.

Yesterday was really fun, but today news just turned it upside down. I went to my friend birthday in wyandanch, as i can't miss nakisaki i left the party early to go there. When i came in i saw an old friend of mine there. We were chatting and dancing trying to catch up. It was fun. Early this morning i recieved a call that my friend is hospitolized. A good samaritan found him in the street unconscious and the person called 911. I still dont know what was the problem ,but they didnt find any bruises in his boddy. I am just hopping for everything to be okay.

I always want to share my wisdom ,which are my experiences, with everybody. I strongly believe that they can learn from them. Everyday in life is a study, if we try to use every second of it as words from books . New things will be suprising or unexpecting, but we should always learn from them . They might sound as a defeat or victory ,but remember there will be ramification of both sides. It could be a better perspective on life, a way to deal with future issues and know how to carry the weight of them. folks should always humble theirselves for good result in the journey of life. Don't we ever think that people are too low to advise us. Even when they are moralize us and they are sound crazy to us be willing to listen to them. Remember everything is not crazy about a crazy person. Don't we miss that part because we'll never know that there's a lot in life we can not do.
Talking about limitation in life when i refer to relationship there is a lot we can say. Today i was drinking some bear with a friend who had girlfriend problem. As i have been notice certain things ,and i believe he also knew them. I let him understand that she's not that person he is dreaming of. I talked to him ,i moralize him and critisize him to get him focus. Some people think they can change others, which is a big mistake. They risk their future by trying to make someone understand that they love them. As i have been to situation similar like his ,and i was always willing to learn from the craziest person on earth. I was the right person that could help him. All of my friend showed their concern and tell me to help him. I made him understand certain things that's not new, but it could have been new for him. We people can not change others if they are not ready for the change, or see the necessity of that change period, that's what i believe. I told him that she doesnt like him they way he does,so stop being a stalker let her go. Some people come to our lives they are like leaves of trees. When the wind blow north they will be and the north side. It will be like that for the cardinal points. some are like branches from trees,so if we lean on them they will fall with us. Some are like roots they will stand by us in good weather or bad wheather. I tell him "know what ur priorities are." he said," i love her to death it is not that easy". Well, nothing is easy but if we love ourselves so much we will never let someone distroy it. I tell him "next time before you fall in love make sure that the person it's the root of the tree because leaves are there for seasons."
Some people say loving eyes can not see. t's not true. It is just only hard to see . If we try our best and we are willing to learn from a wise person we will make the difference. A person that doesnt like us will never compromise with us. we need to know how to let folks go because they can destroy our lives. there is only one place we can find a total peace: deep down a grave yard, and one place we can find love, affection and happiness: Home sweet home. If we bring someone in our home because we think we can change that person , we just make a thousand step toward hell. Please learn how to let folks go.

Today was not a long day. I woke up and feeling amazing so strong. Now im ready to manage this week ahead. Today after i finished my homework i went to see my friend baby. He was so cute so innocent. He leave in deer park ave now, so it was fun to drive up there. myself and a couple of friend went there. we talked to him about the change that is in his life now,and he told us about what happened in the delivey room. he said that he cried. We were cracking up laughing. After he finished explaining the reason i felt bad for the boy. I said, it was good making it, so keep it strong to face the ramification.

Today is coming out to be one of buziest day ever. Early this morning around 3am my frriend call me ,and told that his girl friend was in labor. He has freaked out . I did not want him to drive, so i drove them to the hospital. I stayed at the waiting room for about 5 hours. As i got an appointement at the writing center,i could not wait ,and i could not postpone it because i postponed it last saturday. I got a weekly appointment there, and my tutor's name is Ms powell, i like her. So i left the hospital around 10 am i just called she is still not delivered the baby yet. i hope she have two babies. now im trying to do my homework before the time...Nakisaki!